Ha! So apparently it is that time of year again... which? The one when I update this blog :P Things definitely got better... I grew! NO, I don't mean fat, I grew, I moved on, I am happy... Not every every minute from every day, but the balance in the end is very positive... I am here and it's all that counts and most especially I'm letting other be, I don't need to approve, just be happy for them and I am ;)
So I don't have much to say other than farewell to my old pains and welcome to my new life... Unorganized and messy but I love it!
G'night!

Well, did things get better?

You tell me! So far and since my last post things have definitely changed, for better or worse, I don't know...what happened? There lies another question, and here's my answer: I DON'T KNOW. All I know is 17 years of my life reflect as joyful yet painful, and unfortunately love was not enough... Is it time to move on? I guess it is, it's actually long overdue, probably we have already by the way things are developing I can only think that, and no, it's not an educated guess. Hate that things have gotten this far, this painful, and that we've hurt so many people in the process; can't blame life, I can only blame ourselves. But enough with the lamentations, I want to make this blog healing and maybe help others to recognize the signs of an ending relationship without hurting so much. There'll be funny remarks, probably also painful ones, can't help it right? Life comes in balance. And if anybody feels "depicted" in any of my stories, please don't take it as a bad thing, on the contrary, you should take advantage of that and fix things while they can be fixed. So that's it for today, my cat won't let me continue and I ran out of inspiration... Yes, I'm venting, and whoever thinks I'm doing the wrong thing, sorry, you don't have to read me, just turn the page ;)
Laters!

Why am I doing this?

Simply, because I need to vent, and to keep myself up among the turbulences of life (I should say here that I hate turbulence, it not only freaks me out, makes me lose control of my control). I don't know if anybody will read this, and I kind of don't really care, of course I'd love it if someone does, but it's ok, as I said before, this is just like therapy, the kind of free one... Although if anyone wants to pay for therapy, I wouldn't mind ;)
Life is short, and it's good as long as you make good in it. Karma is important to take in consideration, because as I believe life comes in balance (a perfect one!), we should be careful of what we do, and whom we do it (who? whom? who/whom cares?). As my karma has taught me, I want to be good to my life, because I have too much to lose, don't you? But lately, life is pretty much kicking my ass, and not giving me one way out, wondering if it comes in waves or what... I'm drowning!
Well, waiting for things to get better, 'cause things can only get better... I say farewell for now...